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Friday, December 29, 2006

It's a drug
If I wanted to be something else I would opt to be a (drum roll) a chocolate! Who wouldn't want to be irresistible? Everyone can't resist that creamy smooth experience that surrounds your palate. Just a little bit of that and you're on your way to eternal bliss--okay I might be exaggerating--but once you have one you can never have enough. It comes in different forms, sizes, textures, and flavors! Though I love dark chocolate the best! So to be specific I want to be a dark chocolate ahaha. Bittersweet that's how I can best describe my life whereas chocolate is best described as sinful! It's so rich that it's a sin not to eat it or is it the other way around?

We usually receive chocolates during Valentines Day and Christmas. Most people love chocolate with cookies but I'd rather eat it plain and simple ahaha adding something to it just ruins the flavor and the experience. Is it really an aphrodisiac? I don't think so it's all in the mind dearies ahaha. Maybe it's associated with it since its sinful.

I just love dark chocolate! I'm a dark chocolate lover, okay I might include Belgian chocolate. Milk is fine but dark chocolate is better. Its bittersweet unlike milk and white chocolate. Just a little bit of the latter and the next day you'll be hearing a man's voice from me. If I had a pool I would fill it up with tsokolate and swim in it just like Augustus Gloop from Willie Wonka's lake, I want to have one of those ahahaha

I guess you're already asking what my favorite brand of chocolate is since I've been blabbing about it for a couple of minutes now. To be honest I still don't know what the best brand is. Hershey is fine but it gives me a soar throat the next day. Sees is also fine. We usually get those white boxes during Christmas time or Birthdays. Godiva? I have yet to try it although I have a gift card and I'm not afraid to use it *evil grin*. Ghirardelli? Good for baking but I usually use Lindt for baking since it's cheaper ahaha. Tobleron? it's the same with Symphony I like the almond nougat. Cadbury? Not so fond with it. Nestle? The cheapest of all chocolates ahaha or is it Curly tops? Or Flat tops? Or Cloud 9? Oh I can go on the whole day but you might get bored. My teacher told me that Scharffen Berger is the best and Valhrona is the best for baking; tasting these would be my New Year's resolution ahahaha. I like Dove right now since their chocolate isn't too sweet but you still get your dose of the sweetness and it is so smooth and creamy. But! I will search high and low just to have a taste of the ultimate chocolate, well according to my taste.

A little crash course about chocolate. To all of you who keep saying that chocolate causes acne! That is untrue! I repeat that is so NOT TRUE! Cocoa is good for your health the darker the chocolate the better. It can even help you lose weight--yes you read that right--just a few bites of dark chocolate you can lose some of your appetite.

Death by chocolate, that wouldn't be too bad right? You're not even dead and yet you're already in heaven. Even if you're destination isn't heaven, you've already tasted a part of it ahaha. I don't know when I started liking chocolate but it'll take years or never to cure my disease ahaha. Is there a rehab for chocolate lovers?



9:17 PM
Friday, December 22, 2006

Surreal? oh yeah. very.
Felt like blogging. What's there to do anyway? Why not just blog (if that's even a verb) myself away.

What a way to start your day by hearing bad news. It's actually good news. I had a feeling in my gut that it wouldn't turn out the way I planned it to be, let me rephrase that I was hoping for it not turn out the way I planned it to be. I knew that it was too good to be true ahaha. I've been brainwashing myself to thinking that doing this would make me happier so I began to want it. To hell with it I'm happier now; I don't even want it. I was using this as a get out of jail free card if something happened.

What do trains and love have in common?

They shift back and forth from time to time
There's always a meeting and parting
They cause accidents*Anne*
They have unexpected detours
People are always in it
They need two or more people to function
They're both fast
You can be left out if you're not prepared
They're always there
Both bring you closer to the person you sought for*Pards*

But.....
Trains can be predictable
Trains can be defined while love cannot
Trains go "choochoo" while love goes "choobachoochoo"*a queer from a queer*


I'll add some more if I can come up with something ahaha

8:47 PM
SOMETHING

-Music is my refuge. I could crawl into the spaces between the notes and curl my back to loneliness-

-It is cruel you know, that music should be so beautiful. It has the beauty of loneliness and of pain, of strength and freedom. The beauty of disappointment and never-satisfied love. The cruel beauty of nature, and everlasting beauty of monotony -

-Maybe... maybe emotions become so intense your body just can't contain it. Your mind and your feelings become too powerful... and your body weeps.-

-When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares-

-Don't be dismayed at good-byes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again after a moment or lifetime is certain for those who are friends-

-In every human heart is a place where you put your broken dreams. When something doesn't work out, no matter what it may be, you just have to give it up and stuff it In with your other broken dreams. And make sure to keep the lid tight-

-Life's complexities are also life's source of beauty. We should all have to cry at one point to appreciate how it feels to laugh again, and crumble down and be broken so that you can be whole again-

-Words shrink things that seem timeless when they are in your head to no more than living size when they are brought out-

-For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it.-

-We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love-