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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

The year's last loveliest smile
From where I grew up it has always been summer. Summer was the only season known to me until I left the Philippines. I never knew the beauty fall had to offer. Heat all year long was droning. The rays of the sun followed me everywhere I went like a shadow, eventually irritating me. I always despised the prickly heat and the sticky sweat that came with the season.

Nonetheless, summer had its purpose. In time, she introduced me to autumn. It was love at first sight. Fall simply meant comfort which I yearned for. The season offered so many things; the unusual shades of sunsets, the crisp and chilly air during the morning, the short days and simply laziness. It is as if one is watching a movie as the leaves turn from bright green to brownish orange. Gazing at them dancing graciously from their branches to the ground, oh what a lovely sight!

There's something during the autumnal days that forces people to show warmth and compassion towards one another. It reminds them that the holidays are near; the hot frothy chocolate shared together during the night, warm beds to sleep on and going home to spend time with one's family and friends. What more can one ask for? Fall carries me back to the childhood I had shared with my cousins when I was little -- piling the leaves in a stack while enjoying ourselves by crushing each crunchy leaf into dust.

Somehow I started to appreciate summer. After all, without her I wouldn't have met autumn. Summer is the sign that fall is approaching. It reminds me of the breathtaking characteristics fall has to offer each year making me anticipate the season even more.

7:29 PM
Monday, October 02, 2006

I have this urge to do something productive. I'm so jealous of those people who can travel wherever they want. I'm so jealous when they say "When I was in.... I did.... I learned how to.... I ate.... I met..." When you read/hear their stories you just want to go out their and experience it the same way they did or better. I want to go to places where I can learn and see interesting things. It feels like I'm trapped inside a box, limited. *sigh*

10:21 PM
SOMETHING

-Music is my refuge. I could crawl into the spaces between the notes and curl my back to loneliness-

-It is cruel you know, that music should be so beautiful. It has the beauty of loneliness and of pain, of strength and freedom. The beauty of disappointment and never-satisfied love. The cruel beauty of nature, and everlasting beauty of monotony -

-Maybe... maybe emotions become so intense your body just can't contain it. Your mind and your feelings become too powerful... and your body weeps.-

-When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares-

-Don't be dismayed at good-byes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again after a moment or lifetime is certain for those who are friends-

-In every human heart is a place where you put your broken dreams. When something doesn't work out, no matter what it may be, you just have to give it up and stuff it In with your other broken dreams. And make sure to keep the lid tight-

-Life's complexities are also life's source of beauty. We should all have to cry at one point to appreciate how it feels to laugh again, and crumble down and be broken so that you can be whole again-

-Words shrink things that seem timeless when they are in your head to no more than living size when they are brought out-

-For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it.-

-We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love-